It’s 1am so I’m sorry for the people who won’t see this. But if you want confidence and don’t know how to get it, a really good way is to be confident in other people. When you walk into Starbucks, think, “damn, that barista’s hair is da bomb!” Or when you go to school, think, “my teacher is rocking that skirt!” When you start seeing everyone as being beautiful, at some point you realize that you’re everyone too.
These “not getting out of bed” days are occurring too often. :c
Ugh, I need to be true to myself and stop trying to form this hard-ass identity in order to protect myself. Acting like I don’t give a shit about others and that I can let go so easily is simply not true. I can’t write people off who have wronged me. I have been hurt so many times by people, and if they come back sincere and apologetic I can’t sit there and say “no, fuck you” like I pretend. Instead I embrace them with understanding, with open arms and with love. I’m a forgiving person, and I’d rather protect others and risk hurting myself than shoot people down.
I don’t know if this makes me a weak person, or a strong person. I haven’t decided yet.